i don't know why
the bad part about this sort of thing here, this diary and sites like it, is that it's easy to go off and leave a single entry sitting up as the front page for a long time. a single depressing moment can leave people thinking you're dead for a week (not to mention that you can write a poem about your shower and people will wonder who you're so obsessed with).
interpretation, that's the scary part. one can never tell if you're writing about this week or a week long ago, or if it's all in your head.
i can only hope.