pros and ex-cons
wow, i'm really frustrated right now.
L33T.ca is still down. it's got so many things on it that i've spent lots of time on, and it seems to have just vanished without a trace.
nobody has written anything in the past few days (okay, almost nobody), so there's nothing new to read.
twice now i've planned to spend time with friends who just didn't show up.
i've been spending a lot of time working on improving the underlying code of other peoples' websites. it's really slow and i don't even know if it matters. i'm also unsure if i should do it, because it makes them more aware of the process that they're utilizing to create, which in turn, i fear, will distract them from the creation itself.
no matter how much i work on the code for my own sites, it still doesn't seem right. for that matter, sometimes it's impossible to make it right.
on the other hand, i think my writing is getting better.
i'm getting more involved with music, which is kind of my main interest. (i wanted to write "first love" there, but it makes me feel funny to use the word "love".)
on the other hand, i still have a lot to learn about recording. i still have a lot to learn about playing guitar. i'm not even as good at the guitar as the seventeen year old i'm playing with, and i can't come up with any ideas.
but then, it seems like guitar-playing is his only creative outlet, whereas i play half a dozen instruments (approximately) and do a lot of things online.
i'm spread really thin on the creative front.
i'm the lightly drizzled butter on the toast of life.
make that the dash of paprika on the couscous of life.
perhaps the little green bit of garnish on the pork chop of life.
man... where was i?