if i sing acappella, it will have more emotional impact
what is going to happen to me? what will i become?
we are always becoming something. i think that i am changing from who i used to be. i've already changed a lot, i think, but i am still myself. still a dork, still tall and skinny, still bad with girls.
but i'm better in some ways. more talkative (sometimes), more awake to possibilities, less self-conscious about my hair.
it's not all gravy though (not even good gravy!). i am afraid sometimes that i will turn evil, that i am becoming irrevocably perverted, that one of these days i will manipulate somebody and i won't turn back from it.
when i really think about it, though, i know that i still have a conscience. i think that i'm a lot less principled than i used to be, though; or maybe i'm no more principled, and i'm just more aware of my principles and how often i fall short of them or ignore them.
i think i'm approaching an irreverisible crossroads.
and now, i think i'm going to get out of this computer lab and go look at the sky before i have to go back to work. i like to look at the sky. it's huge.