am i really charlie brown?
"fell asleep wondering how brave i'd be. woke up still wondering."
"this is who you were, you know, it amounted to nothing."
other things, other people said. set off echoes in my head. meaning, i think. i see meaning in everything, but i don't know what any of it means.
i think that i'm making some sort of progress, but any positive feelings usually reverse at some point. i can definitely look at my life and see how it's improved from a measurable, objective standpoint. i now live on my own instead of in somebody else's house. i now earn enough money to save (a little, briefly) and to obtain some things that i want.
on the inside, i don't really know if i'm making progress. i mean, i must be maturing a little bit in order to be holding down a job and whatnot. i just don't know if there's anything else going on up there in that noggin.
hmm, guess who's voice i could hear that in? that's right, it was yours!