also,
despite some resolution, people are still complicated. i think i expect too much from them, and try to read their minds, project motives onto them.
the sick thing about me is that i want attention from too many people. (i have to be vague here, because i feel like if i'm totally honest, then i will be revealed as a leper, to be shunned.)
it's 2:17 a.m. why am i still up? i don't know.