T - too much thinking!
struggle.
i keep thinking that i am able to be in control of my life (although life has demonstrated plentifully that this is not the case). i at least think that i can get caught up in grand schemes like a record label (although i have demonstrated to myself that i will probably never finish it). i keep getting reminded, unexpectedly, that i have unfinished business with god (although i always run away).
it's been demonstrated to me how it can be good not to run away, but it's still a struggle for me to turn around and face my fears.
it's also a struggle for me to do only one thing at a time when online.