rambles as usual
sometimes it seems so pointless, life. so much effort just to maintain your place, just to keep up relationships, and all the time there are new, exciting people to know. it seems like it would be better just to give up, not even try. is that what most people do: not try? it is a struggle to balance natural reaction and deliberate, conscious choice.
i probably just need to get more sleep.
it's also a problem for me to distinguish my two web sites. why do i have two of them? they're basically the same, right? well, i do put links in the other one, and capitalize my initials and whatnot. this one is supposed to be a place for me to spill my guts. but what if i write something insightful and witty on this one? do i copy it over there? link to it?
"hey, everybody, go check out this fun and insightful diary i just happened to stumble across. it's a total coincidence we're both named 'aikan'."
so anyway, going to hang out with "ami" and her sister tonight. sometimes it feels like i already knew her. it's also interesting how there is always some form of redhead in my life. artificial red, maybe, but that's no matter.
does that mean that one day these two will pass from my life and be replaced by another? should i write this where it will be red, err, read by ms. "emo"?
well, it's just superstition anyway. don't take it personal.
i guess this is the end of our show. come back later if you feel like it. i'll do the same, and maybe we'll meet up on the way. until then, have a nice life and don't worry about a thing.