i wanted to
weird. i'm the number one result in msn searches for hari kari. i bet nobody really even says "hari kari".
lately i've been reminded of a girl. between me and this girl, i used to feel like there was an attraction, an interest, tension. there were things felt but not said. there was curiosity and maybe some excitement.
for me, though, there was also uncertainty and indecision. she is a very unique person, but she is somewhat younger than me. not too young, in the end, but just enough to make me hesitate.
finally, though, hesitation was overcome by interest, and i decided that the age difference was not a problem.
i still didn't do anything, though. i don't know why. i never do anything. no matter how clear the opportunity is, i always hold back and suddenly decide that maybe i shouldn't.
i never just kiss the girl.