i'm a lot like you
and so i told her not to let something just happen, because it might not be what she wanted.
she said, "but i don't know what i want", and i didn't know what else to say. i've come to believe that relationships shouldn't just happen -- there should be some sort of thought behind it. but why not? because you might get hurt. that's not a very good reason. because you might hurt somebody else. i think that's a better reason, but only slightly. because i think there should be a reason behind decisions that we make, and especially such an import decision.
i don't think any of these are good enough reasons to tell to anybody who is feeling hurt and alone and single.
i don't even know if she is feeling that way -- but i know she is, because of what she's been through.
but don't i really want to stop her because i want her to be available for me? i don't even know any more. i'm confused and overwhelmed, and i want it to stop.