in order to solve your problem, you must acknowledge that it exists
man i miss the past. sometimes old songs will flood me with nostalgia for the time when i thought that everything was alright. no, that's not quite it. back in those days, i just didn't think at all. i felt good because i had friends and because i spent the rest of my time avoiding reality right here on the computer.
i was thinking back to another period of time in the past, but this one only a year ago. what is boils down to is this: did it really make me happy? yes, at the time it did, but look at how long it lasted. in the end, i thought that i would be less fearful and more confident, but nothing's really changed.
what it boils down to is this: i am a coward.