p.s.
sorry. sometimes i'm just an annoying cad/bounder. i can't help it. i just have to talk to you. but you always are so reserved that i want to draw you out. it's selfish, maybe. i don't know. but i'll stop now. i don't want to ruin our friendship, because i know that there's not really anything to replace it with. i wish there were, because i see the admirable and desirable qualities in you; and i even think that we have a lot in common, in the way we think and the way we feel. i think that you're barely aware of me, though, that i'm a peripheral figure who swings by once in a while on an erratic tangent to somewhere else; and honestly, i'm not sure that we'd really be that good together. i just love the way you smile and laugh, and i'd love to curl up with you and drift to sleep in that comforting way. but i'd also love to connect with you on a mental level, and that doesn't happen, and that's necessary for anything else. so, i hope that this can serve as an expurgation of all those things, and a reminder, and i hope that i can just be your friend, and be ready for the time when the girl comes along for whom all of these things are true.
please don't be blue
i'll sing a song for you