derailed in infancy, bereft of its life, stillborn
this is in response to a note from takeone, but i thought it might be appropriate to put it here:
what i mean by "right mind" is the person that i want to be, and think that i can be. like paul says in the bible, i do what i don't want to do, and don't do what i want to. i've lost a lot of ground and i don't know if i'll ever get it back. i might just keep falling away.
i also keep losing my train of thought.