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April 14, 2004
10:19 p.m.

spectacles mirrored upon the inside

i want to cover up the previous entry, lest it give the wrong impression of my state of mind. like it says, i'm so tired that i feel drunk.

i also think that i live in fantasy a lot. not heavy fantasy, like thinking that i can fly or that i'm actually, like, cool. i just mean slipping into a state of mind that doesn't quite let the truth all the way in. i'll take a friendly girl's friendliness as interest. i'll fit myself into a stereotype that i don't belong in. i'll think that i'm mature, tough, experienced. i'll feel very serious and melancholy.

in reality, i'm probably more like a big kid.

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