mumble mumble
10:10 p.m. Hit return.
sorry, suddenly felt like i was in Pi.
i'm not so sure that i'll ever find myself, or reach a point which i can take care of myself well enough to start trying to take care of others. if "taking care of myself" means providing financially and emotionally for myself, then that means a significant investment in time and energy just to obtain, and then a constant overhead to maintain it.
the alternative is dropping everything to try to fix the problems of the world, or at least pursuing some sort of field that would make a difference.
this is all theory though. in fact, it's just rambling.
and now, to run away.