all of my songs are love songs
new headphones. listening to mp3s on epitonic.
sometimes i feel like i'm trying to act like i'm younger. yeah, i'm still a cool kid, i'm still hip, i'm down with, um... whatever. (on a side note, "still hip"? i've only just become at all "hip".) i especially feel this way when listening to modern melodic punk-esque stuff -- like the get up kids or braid -- so i don't listen to much of it. also, i must admit, it, uh... it all sounds the same to me. i mean, i can hear the differences, but i suppose that it all feels the same. it's all semi-dramatic, semi-angsty, and yet somehow fun and hopeful at the same time. in short, it's teenager music. i'm still young, but i'm not a teenager anymore, no matter how much i might feel like one at times, or however much some teenagers seem to be smarter and more mature than i am sometimes.
one of the side-effects of a place like epitonic is the tendency to start up a new song before i even finish listening to the current one. there's so much music to choose from -- and i've even heard of some of it -- that sometimes i don't give a song a chance before overrunning it with another. this is kind of disturbing to a person who's accustomed to giving everyone and everything more than a few chances. i even feel kind of bad at times, and sometimes, as a new song is queueing up, i'll think, "hey, i was actually kind of enjoying that song", and then my ears are freshly assaulted.
i'm always changing things, trying to get the best settings on the stereo for instance, even when i don't need to. i'll often do something just because i can, not because there's any need. is this the same as saying that the old settings were not any good? no. it's just saying that i don't really know what i want.
some people know what they want, but when they get it, they don't want it any more.