chuck. that's me.
and this: http://aikan.diaryland.com/040603_73.html
i wrote about hating the growing process, of being better but not yet good. today, i was made to visit a church, and in the class the discussion was about what it means to be a perfect christian. perfect, they said, did not mean "having arrived", but "going in the right direction".
regardless of how i feel about christianity (which is a thick, confusing document in itself), this sounds like a lesson to me. i am going somewhere that i might never reach, but i should be cheered anytime i find myself on the path. where the path even goes, i may or may not find out; but that is beside the point.
p.s. i also wrote another entry before this one. it's been so long since i wrote here, make sure you read them all. be the first on your block to have the complete set! no pressure or anything.